emo suck! ( daw )

...its 12:o5 am.. and yes.. im still awake.. feelin so tired, i got home around 7:45pm, ate dinner ( the yummy sisig and shawarma ), went to the fuckin cafe.. to practice.. and went home ( coz everything sux in that shop ).. usually practices lasts till morning but since i got classes tomorrow morning and ate ishi got work at 5am, i hafta sleep early too., i asked my boyfriend if he's gunna come over, coz i was thinkin that if he';s gunna sleep at my place, he has to come early, but practice comes first.., it'll last till 1am.. argh.. i cant wait that long.. i hafta wake up at 6am! >.kada ppnta ako jan lagi nlng ako nagmamadali".. to be honest i somehow got offended but i pretended that its ok.. i dont want to make a biggie deal ouof it.., im not obligin him to come over and stay wit me.., he will never understand my situation no matter how i explain.., but its ok.., one thing i learned after our last breakup.., "if you dont want others others to know what u r feeling, act normal as if everything is just ok even if its not".. everyone knows i have this difficulty of expressing myself.., so instead of going all emo.. and acting weird.. i just keep it to myself,, acting normal and all.. i dunnoh but maybe its much better :(

p.s

i change my blog password >.< nalaman kc ni bebi hahaha

Boys will always be Boys

*tagalog mode*

bat kaya ganun.. minsan yung mga lalake may pagka"insensitive" pero kung ssbihin nyu yan sa knila ang ssbihin nmn nila "hindi nmn kme manghuhula para hulaan ang nsa isip nyo" funny ryt?, alamu ung minsan pa obvious ka n nga sa gus2 mo mangyari pero d prin nila nappansin yun.,. nakakainis noh? pero what can we do., babaliktarin lng ni taio ng bbaliktarin., sbi nga sa title ng post ko.. Boys will always be Boys..

tas yung funny pa dun.. syempre, dhil sa matinding insensitivity nila.., nangyayari eh tumutubo ung mga ugat sa noo ntin, maiinis taio, maiirita,mawawala sa mood,magsusunget, YUN mapapansin nila HAHAHA.. tas magtatanong cla.. why are you acting like that? lamu un.. kung pwede mo lng cla sagutin ng HOLY SHIT makiramdam ka :3 hahaha in my case.. maxado mababaw umiiral nnmn kc ung pagka isip bata ko.. mababaw kc akong tao.. KSP :3 in short.. haaay inaantok nako.. i22log ko n nga lng tong pagkaimbyerna ko :3 gudnyt :3

-chiE..

i need this... again

im kinda having a hard time opening myself up to people around me..

i dont want to be called "emo", i dont want to be called a "drama-queen", or

anything related to that., it's already half pass 1 am, 23rd day of September

year 2o09 ( now that's specific ), i couldn't find my Adobe CS3, i want to create

a layout ( again ) and start coding ( even though im sooo sick of it ), to be honest

i dunno what i am up to right now, i want to sleep but its kinda complicated in here

so i CANT even though i really really WANTED to.. my boyfriend is out there

drunk.., i dunno but something is really bothering me., he asked me if he could go out

tomorrow for a "drinking session" with his friends.. i know that if i say no, he might

sneak out, so even though i really dont want him to go since I KNEW that he wont be texting

me till the next day.. ( sighs ).. err.. oh well.. i wanted to keep this blog private.,

in fact the reason why i started this again coz i was feeling sad and glo0my., :(

and the ironic part is.. i couldn;t even explain why,...