emo suck! ( daw )

...its 12:o5 am.. and yes.. im still awake.. feelin so tired, i got home around 7:45pm, ate dinner ( the yummy sisig and shawarma ), went to the fuckin cafe.. to practice.. and went home ( coz everything sux in that shop ).. usually practices lasts till morning but since i got classes tomorrow morning and ate ishi got work at 5am, i hafta sleep early too., i asked my boyfriend if he's gunna come over, coz i was thinkin that if he';s gunna sleep at my place, he has to come early, but practice comes first.., it'll last till 1am.. argh.. i cant wait that long.. i hafta wake up at 6am! >.kada ppnta ako jan lagi nlng ako nagmamadali".. to be honest i somehow got offended but i pretended that its ok.. i dont want to make a biggie deal ouof it.., im not obligin him to come over and stay wit me.., he will never understand my situation no matter how i explain.., but its ok.., one thing i learned after our last breakup.., "if you dont want others others to know what u r feeling, act normal as if everything is just ok even if its not".. everyone knows i have this difficulty of expressing myself.., so instead of going all emo.. and acting weird.. i just keep it to myself,, acting normal and all.. i dunnoh but maybe its much better :(

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i change my blog password >.< nalaman kc ni bebi hahaha